Friday, August 9, 2013

First email #ShelleBetterAppreciateThis #ILoveAFullChestPocket

So...it's only Friday, and I've already been through the rollercoaster. I've felt a lot of different emotions. A lot all at once. I can't believe how busy we are and people actually survive this! It's insane, I think. I know it's possible though, through the Lord.

Anyway, I wrote a letter my first night and put it in the mailbox this morning, so that should be there pretty soon. The first night was already super busy. We had a big meeting with some of our fellow dork dots. Kinda crazy. The leaders here are incredible. I can tell they have enormous love for each of us, which was really important for me to hear that first night, and last night, but that's a different story. Elder B from Viewmont is in my District and his comp. hadn't gotten here yet (he's a real character), so he got to be in a threesome with me and my comp. Elder N. He's a cool guy. I think he's kind of struggling with personal study and things like that, and his gospel knowledge is lacking a little bit, but who am I to judge?? I don't :) He's super nice and is trying to try hard, I think. He wants to be out here and really tries to participate in class and such. He is a bigger guy. He is probably about 6'3", and a little heavier set (is that how you say that? Husky? Idk..) I love him though. I'm determined to. Even if he has sworn a couple times, once under his breath and once not-so-under his breath. I try to talk really appropriately to help him.  My district, all elders, rocks! We're already pretty tight and getting tighter. I love these guys. We have some amazing sisters in our zone. One, Sis. C, has already been on a three month trial mission for health reasons, and has helped me a lot with relaxing and knowing how to do things, through tips and such.

Wow...distractions. Time flies when you're writing emails. After the meeting, we went to some...wait for it, wait for it, wait for iiiiiiiit..."teaching experiences" (OOOOO...AAAHHH). Weird name for teaching some fake some real investigators. (ps. feeling a lot of pressure writing this...from shelle, from my blessing at setting apart) It was a really cool experience though.

This is hard. The next morning was rough...after a while. In class I got pretty overwhelmed with my comp. and teaching experiences just with us two, planning for those, studying enough, being a good enough missionary...EVERYTHING imaginable. I felt more confused than I've ever felt in my whole life. I felt so many different things. I just wanted to feel the spirit, which I was...but there was so many other things to feel too. AHH! It kinda stresses me out, thinking about it. I felt better later, again, when we met our branch pres and his counselors and their wives. They are incredible. I really felt their love, which was extremely comforting. A lot of people have said to not get too overwhelmed with everything, but then they tell us all these things to overwhelm us...It's a little contradictory, I think. Hopefully I'll be able to completely stop that thinking. I will. It is hard though.
I feel like I can't adequately express everything I've felt and am feeling. There's just so much to feel!!

I love being here though. I know Elder Schouten and John have felt like the MTC felt like a prison, but I feel like it's training camp for the most sicktastic army ever!!! It rocks! We're all here for the same purpose, and we're all trying our best. We have similar goals in mind and are going through similar things. It's a great unifying feeling. I'm trying to have that overpower anything else.

I love P day so far. I love being able to have some freedom. It was well-timed for me. I needed to have a little more of a break. I've had a lot of really good conversations with Elder B. He's so easy to talk to, and I just love that Elder (not guy, we don't say that). I'm getting better at talking to Elder N. He and I are the only ones in our room for four, for some reason. Maybe we'll get roomies next week. Maybe Mason! Jk, that'd be way too nice. I need more trying times in here, so I can learn now and get better. So when I'm teaching real people, I'm not so distracted by these issues.
I hear that it'll get better after Sunday...all the time. So, we'll see how that is.

I need any advice from anyone I can get.

I've seen Brandon Kasparian, who works in the cafeteria, at lunch today. I've seen Elder Brown (Landon), Elder Garn (Trent), and some others. That has been nice. I still haven't seen Elder Richins though! That kinda bums me out.

My teachers, Sis. Smith and Bro. Heath, are awesome. Sis. Smith taught a lot yesterday, and she's amazing. Kind of reminds me of Sister Baker! Comforting. She says y'all too, which I like a lot.

I'll try to send some pictures, but we'll see.

Mason, anyone else mission prep-ing, friends, STUDY!!!! BE PREPARED, GET READY TO LOVE THE WORK, BE YOURSELF, ENJOY THE MTC! Hope I get to see you here next week! Love you all

--I love the Lord--

Love you all,

Elder Tanner
^^booyah, grandma

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