He knows me.

This was an insane week. It has seemed so fast, yet so much has happened. I have never felt so spiritually high and low in such a short time...besides some other times previously in my life. But this one was pretty intense, don't get me wrong.

 

Elder Craig A. Cardon of the Seventy came for a Mission Tour on Friday and he shared some incredible things, including a pretty straightforward rebuke of a certain aspect of teaching as a missionary. It was sweetness though. I dig rebuking...I guess I need it a lot. He IS a special witness, E. Cardon. He told us some things about their meetings with the First Presidency, which revamped my testimony of them as well, especially as I was reading about following the prophet in PMG in my studies. He told us to think of up to three questions at the beginning of the day, and promised they would be answered throughout the day. So, naturally, I thought of three questions, being greedy with divine promises. Sue me. I felt kinda bad about choosing three pretty personal questions, but found later that my answers to them can help those around me too. The Lord's sneaky sometimes. Good sneaky. Anyways, all three of my questions got answered partially throughout the day, BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE! In E. Cardon's final testimony, he shared an answer to each of my questions...in order. So, turns out, the Lord knows me. Pretty dang stinkin' well. Huge testimony builder, and it would be uncanny...if we weren't talking about the Lord. I don't know about y'all, but I love the Lord. He never ceases to amaze me and bless me, despite stupidity on my part.

 

That brings me to the rough part of the weekend...the muddy part. We got stuck in the mud on the way to an appointment, and we couldn't get the car out before we had to be at the church to go to the adult session of Stake Conference. We went with muddy feet and pants. The members were so loving and kind about it though. Many offered to help us out....of the mud. We ended up getting it out at about 12:30 am. Super freezing and tired, but we got it out. All six of the Seminole missionaries came that night to help. We all froze together, along with Bro. B. We definitely bonded. And I found out that staying up late is definitely not worth it. We get up way too early for that. I still got up at 6:30 though. Wildly sleepy.

 

We got grounded on Sunday cause of the cold and ice. It was/is SO cold. It's crazy. The humidity makes it super fun too... We spent the day at the K's house. They're so awesome. They fed us Lunch and Dinner. And S, their daughter, is the one that texted Tato. They are so good to us missionaries.

 

The Norman Stake got a new Stake Pres. yesterday...which brought back a flood of memories of Dad's getting called and released as Stake Pres. I felt an almost overwhelming sense of gratitude for his and all church leaders' service and sacrifice. They go through a lot. More than we know. I know they're called of God, including Dad.

 

Another miracle to go along with my stupidity with the car, showing the Lord's constant awareness. I was feeling down about the whole thing yesterday morning, when I noticed I was a few days behind on my Conference Calendar. The one from Sunday morning, if you remember, was about putting aside past guilt....that's what I struggle with probably the most. It's so hard to forgive myself. I know I've repented, but Satan, like the quote says, uses that to lure us back in and tries to drag us "carefully down to Hell." I don't know about y'all, but that's not so desirable to me. "I choose life [eternal]." (Sid, on Ice Age) I may have added that last word there...but you get the picture. This all showed me the Lord's remembrance of me. He will NEVER forsake us. He leaves us with peace. His peace. MUCH better than the world's short-lived peace.

 

Remind me to tell y'all about Remember the CHANGES. Something I made up at my last Clinton District Meeting. It's in relation to one of the greatest movies of all time, Remember the Titans. I find relations to that with missionary work rather often...sweetness, I know. "Attitude reflec' leadership" being on of them. Think about it.

 

We are one, y'all. That's what I got from Stake Conference. Heavenly Father said so Himself in General Conf. through Pres. Monson. Invite friends over for dinner, not even relating anything to the Gospel, unless it's brought up. Invite them to FHE alone or with the missionaries. It's powerful. We do that here a lot, FHE with members. We have one tonight with the K's. It works, and it brings the missionaries and members together.

 

We're still teaching Bro. G...I think I told y'all about him. He's a member's husband. He's basically a member, coming to church and all. He just isn't baptized. He's awesome.

 

During this Holiday Season, it makes me so grateful for y'all. Beyond what I can say in mere words. In eternity, I'll be able to express it to y'all, I hope. Know that I love and pray daily for y'all. Thank you for everything.

 

Love,

Elder Tanner

-I Love the Lord-